His name is Sam fucking Phipps. He has herpes. Spread the word not the disease.

The little bitch, the fucking whore. 

I bet if I was some bitchy confident popular girl he wouldn't of said that, it wouldn't have happened. 

Whose best? He has no idea, he can't tell me what's best for me. 

It was me, it obviously was me. My body language was wrong all night and he saw it. He knew I wasn't what he fucking wants. Before he even tried. Disgusting. What a dick. He said He's not what I deserve. How the fuck does he know what I deserve? He has know idea. He knows nothing, he can't claim to. "I hope I didn't lead you on". No of course you didn't, you didn't FUCKING KISS ME OR ANYTHING. That's not leading someone on, kissing someone. Of course not. How silly of me to assume something like that. The dickhead. Also instead of "I hope we can stay friends" he decided to say "stay in touch". Stay in touch? Stay in fucking touch? Are you kidding me? 

It's not that I'm weak and that I need him. It's not that I'm upset because I genuinely really liked him. I mean it is partly, but that's a minor reason. I hardly know him,  so how can I say I love him? For the record I don't, I never did. I'm upset because he thinks he can do it, and it's alright and he can get away with something like that. Fucking ridiculous. He thinks it's fine, and that I'll understand. He fucking thinks he's doing the "right thing". Personally I think it's a bit late for that. He should of thought about that before he asked me out on a date and then kissed me. 

This is ridiculous. He has no right to do something like this to anyone. 

Please could you take a couple of minutes to do my questionnaire on short films for my media coursework

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/Q8HMVD7

Uwantme2killhim?

http://www.vanityfair.com/ontheweb/features/2005/02/bachrach200502

Fact of the day.

One day, in the not too distant future, the magnetic poles of the Earth are going to swap around. Making the currently North Pole South and the South Pole North!

So this is my newish ginger friend Ollie.

Isn't he attractive?

Also I think this is the first picture I have posted of myself on this blog!
I like this picture because not only is Ollie rather hot, but because he is quite pale he makes me look a little more tanned!

What happens in an Internet minute?

Another media post.

Post modern Tv show log

Big bang theory - intertextuality, hybridity

Waterloo road 

Educating Yorkshire - voyeurism, self-reflexivity 

Americas next top model - voyeurism, self-reflexivity 

Bad education - hybridity

Wolfblood - 

The ideology of mass culture:

The big bang theory

ANTM

The ironic or "detached position":

Waterloo road

The ideology of popularism:

The big bang theory

Books and art and film

Love Aubrey by Suzanne lafluer 

Playing grace

Observance by bill viola

a sleek dry yell by haroon mirza 

The girl chewing gum by John smith

Hackney marshes by John smith 

Blue bathroom 

Alive in the face of death rankin

Fact of the day.

In 1932 the membership of the ku klux klan claimed to be one million. 

The sun never sets on the children of Africa.

"Our village once was small but strangers came and spread us all over the world. Now our village is vast and our presence extends to the four corners of the globe. The sun never sets on the children of Africa." - Ali mazrui 1986

Party plans ideas.

Movie night

Casino night 

Garden party

Mad hatter tea party 

Barbecue

Laser quest

Masquerade ball 

Superhero movie marathon 

Harry potter night 

Games night 

Beatles night

James bond night

Mexican night 

Disney night 

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So i know i hardly post at all compared to how much i used to but i'm still glad i started this blog, yeah thats all for now.

Fact of the day.

The Beatles Sargent pepper cover art was designed by Peter Blake. 

I love the birthday card I got for my dad!

When I was researching a playwright for drama.

No posting as usual!

I haven't posted in ages but it's mostly because I like to use this as a place to get my feelings out. But at the moment my life is pretty stress free (apart from driving but I'm ignoring that), so I haven't needed to post which is a good thing!

I think one of the main reasons is I feel more comfortable at school because I actually enjoy the subjects I take and I actually want to do the work (apart from my drama coursework but lets ignore that too). 

We're also going on holiday too and I'm looking forward to it. The weather here has also been actually sunny and I have a tan, I think the weather does affect my mood. 

So overall life is good, let's just hope it stays that way for as long as possible  

This month is gonna be a good one.

Although I haven't started it off very well, I've already left my phone at drama and go the the lead female singing part (I am not great at singing and hate doing it on stage, why did they give me the part there are way better singers in the group. Why would they do this to me?)

Fact of the day.

Anatidaephobia is the fear that somewhere in the world, there is a duck watching you. 

Fact of the day.

Todays fact is that the film Inception was put on hold for ten years because it was too similar to the Matrix. 

Fact of the day.

Today's fact is that Stalin and Hitler were both nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize.